Hola! Can you believe it? I surely can't, but I am back!! How much I've missed this.
My oldest daughter has started a 30-day Self Love Challenge. Each day we're given a new "assignment" if you will to help us grow and awaken to being not only comfortable in our own skin, but to love the skin we're in. So this event inspired me to return to my blog. Of course it started last week, so I'm catching up. No surprise there...but who cares, right?
Day 1 we focused on journaling what we are greatful for. Which emphasized physical and mental preparation. Setting the ambiance with candles, incense, maybe soft music, whatever gives you a relaxing space to meditate on what you are thankful for. What was I thankful for? Hmmm I will grab my journal page now.
1. Ryu's purring. He's a quiet kitty most of the time, not as vocal as my past kitties. Lately he will meow to get our attention in the evening! Most important, he climbs into bed with us at night, lays down next to my husband (his favorite person) and purrs loudly. How much I've missed that sound. Thank you kitty!
2. A coworker informed me that a customer I adore and miss due to illness that has kept them home for at least a year, came in when I wasn't working to mail a package. So the joy of knowing she's up and out and feeling well enough to do what she loves again just makes my heart soar!
3. On Fat Tuesday a local BBQ restaurant featured a Pork Paczki sammich!!! AAAHHHH my brain exploded!!! It was Scrum-deli-umptious!! Oh the drool.
4. OK so a package started leaking at work and we had to open it and clean up the floor etc. It was a gallon jug of molasses and it got all over my hands. I kinda liked it more than I should have. The smell was intoxicating (I love molasses cookies) and I always found messiness fun. :-)
5. My daughters both stopped by to pick up their Valentine's day gifts for both of them and all 3 of my amazing grandchildren. I love seeing their faces, talking to them, and giving them stuff!!!
6. How cute I was all day. I love me. I think I'm down right cute!
7. BIG ONE COMING: My husband went to see a musical with me! I gave him the option of leaving at intermission if he felt as if he was going to gouge his eyes out and cut off his ears. To my surprise, he was enjoying himself. Of course I am sure that part of the reason he could tolerate this performance, is due to the fact that it featured the music of Gloria Estefan and told her life story in a jukebox kind of way. Either way I was able to stay and sing and dance and clap through the entire performance and it was one of my favorite nights ever!
8. Finally...My horde of pillows and "Linus" blanket. The pillows provide all of the support and adjustments a hypermobile body needs to stave off dislocations during sleep. The blanket is just a comforting item that helps me fall asleep.
Phew! It's so good to see so many wonderful experiences in just one day. Writing them out gives me a place to look to for reference during tough times. Managing constant pain and fatigue gets tricky. Thank goodness for not only this challenge that by the way uses the hashtag #drunkmirandasselflovechallenge that I'm sure you could find some fun posts on Facebook, Instagram, and maybe even Twitter, I haven't checked. This challenge is a daily if not an all day reminder of how important it is and how good it feels to treat yourself with kindness and adoration.
I hope all are well and if you have the opportunity, find a group, a book, an article, a friend heck any avenue there is to help put you on the path of self love. Even if you feel that you are doing the work of self love, check yourself, take inventory and make sure you are. Accountability!!
Many blessings
Anna
Tuesday, February 20, 2018
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
Coffee appreciation
Last night I slept over my daughter's house while she was at work, with her daughters. A task I don't mind, but rarely get to do due to my work schedule. Usually their father is their.
In the morning she had an important appointment to keep. So I got the oldest ready for school (she's 5) and made her cinnamon pancakes per her request while the baby was luckily still asleep.
As we were finishing up the morning routine now with her little sister joining in, my daughter called to let me know she was already finished and on her way back home. She had stopped at a Biggby and needed to know what I would like. I told her my coffee needs, and went back to making sure my granddaughter was dressed.
When my daughter arrived, she only had 1 cup in her hand. I immediately assumed she left one on the table or in her vehicle. When I asked her where the rest was, she informed me that she only bought my coffee as a thank you because I do so much for her.
I held back tears. It really touched my heart that she thought of me and wanted to show her gratitude. To me, it's just what family do. We do for each other because sometimes family is all we got.
My daughters are my best friends and I can't think of no better way to stress out, rush around, or worry than for them and the grandchildren. It's a joy.
I gladly accept the challenge.
Goodnight y'all
Anna 😴
Monday, April 18, 2016
Managing hypermobility
Today I had my follow up visit with my new rheumatologist. Just covering the blood work and x-rays. I feel at ease again by just seeing her Physician's Assistant who was my favorite at my old rheumatologist.
They have a different approach that pushes physical therapy & joint injections over chronic pain care with meds. I think I can manage this though she did suggest I get my primary doctor to prescribe my pain meds even though I'm definitely bringing down the dosage. Also pushing water therapy for my lower back.
We shall see!
Hypermobile adventures!
Friday, May 2, 2014
Gonna wash that gray right outta...?
Two weeks ago, I purchased a box of hair dye with the idea of sprucing up my do for the spring. I am proud to say that for two years now, I have not used chemical dyes or relaxers at all. It took some getting use to, but now I'm proud of my natural hair. ☺ But the color is quite bland and I'm ready for a little oomph. So I stopped at my local Walgreen's, picked out a basic pretty brown and planned to slap that sucker in before the weekend was over.
Two weeks later...
It still sits on my kitchen shelf. The box has fallen sadly to it's side, forgotten.
This morning as I brushed my hair back and applied one of my favorite headbands, I asked myself "why? And be honest!" Here's what I revealed to myself.
I want to dye my hair, but I will be truly sad to cover up my gray hair. I started getting them when I was 35 and I've always been proud of them and always seeking them out. It took a lot of work then, now it's a little easier. I shoe them to people still who look at me silly saying they barely see it. I think they're just being nice, because they don't realize I'm proud of them. They are, to me, a well earned crown of wisdom, growth and womanhood. I feel proud when I catch a glance of silver.
Now that I'm aware of how I'm feeling, I'm ready to dye my hair knowing that not only will they be there when it grows out but probably a few more! ��
Before and after pictures to come.
Many blessings
Anna ��
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Right now I'm....
It's Tuesday January 21st 2014.
It has been a long time.
I'm still a mom of 2 amazing women.
I'm still a grandmother to a remarkable little girl.
I'm still crazy in love happily married to my childhood sweetheart.
I'm still quite Pagan ... maybe a little more Agnostic than before, but Pagan none the less.
I've lost a friend and her son in a tragic and horrific double homicide and suicide.
Reading the Divergent series but just finished Frozen by Melissa De La Cruz and Michael Johnston and it was goooddd... it's the first of a series they just started so now I must wait. But while I wait I will continue with Divergent.
Wishing I could sit and crochet like I use to, my hands aren't as capable as they use to be.
My Hypermobility is kicking my arse in so many ways. I'm trying different things on top of the meds I'm on. Including, Physical Therapy, Walk-Fit exercise DVDs and dieting to lose excess weight. I think it's making a difference. I'm a grandma who wants very much to be able to play and chase after my grandchildren for many many years to come. I'm 41 years old and my doctor says my joints are of a 60 year old. :-(
Currently I am reguarly writing letters to 2 people in jail. One a close friend and the other a close family member. It's becoming more and more my norm, but still odd. It always seemed that would be what other people do. It's important to me to be a good friend to both in writing and keeping communication open so that they feel they have connections outside. It's so easy to go on about your day to day and forget they aren't able to do that.
Life continues and I try to just relax, enjoy, learn and grow with as little drama and stress as possible. I truly feel I've pretty much mastered this and though I again need to get my meditation schedule back on a daily occurence, I'm very happy.
I miss blogging
sharing my life with pretty much just me and a friend or two
but it feels good to let it out
to share
and maybe, once in a while get some input.
enjoy your day
Anna
It has been a long time.
I'm still a mom of 2 amazing women.
I'm still a grandmother to a remarkable little girl.
I'm still crazy in love happily married to my childhood sweetheart.
I'm still quite Pagan ... maybe a little more Agnostic than before, but Pagan none the less.
I've lost a friend and her son in a tragic and horrific double homicide and suicide.
Reading the Divergent series but just finished Frozen by Melissa De La Cruz and Michael Johnston and it was goooddd... it's the first of a series they just started so now I must wait. But while I wait I will continue with Divergent.
Wishing I could sit and crochet like I use to, my hands aren't as capable as they use to be.
My Hypermobility is kicking my arse in so many ways. I'm trying different things on top of the meds I'm on. Including, Physical Therapy, Walk-Fit exercise DVDs and dieting to lose excess weight. I think it's making a difference. I'm a grandma who wants very much to be able to play and chase after my grandchildren for many many years to come. I'm 41 years old and my doctor says my joints are of a 60 year old. :-(
Currently I am reguarly writing letters to 2 people in jail. One a close friend and the other a close family member. It's becoming more and more my norm, but still odd. It always seemed that would be what other people do. It's important to me to be a good friend to both in writing and keeping communication open so that they feel they have connections outside. It's so easy to go on about your day to day and forget they aren't able to do that.
Life continues and I try to just relax, enjoy, learn and grow with as little drama and stress as possible. I truly feel I've pretty much mastered this and though I again need to get my meditation schedule back on a daily occurence, I'm very happy.
I miss blogging
sharing my life with pretty much just me and a friend or two
but it feels good to let it out
to share
and maybe, once in a while get some input.
enjoy your day
Anna
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Letting it out - Sisterhood lacking
Currently enjoying 2 weeks (except for one day) off from work. In the middle of a heatwave and pretty much staying inside. I find myself in deep reflection, meditation and that has resulted in joy and awakening. I'm pretty sure that the friendships I tout as being all important and close are a different species than I convinced myself and others they are. I no longer feel as close to most of my friends if i did at all, I'm not 100% sure. That being said, I can say my relationship with my husband has grown immensely and I feel even more in love with him now as if we were still those awkward teens enamored of each other many years ago.
I do plan to work on figuring out which friendships are indeed natural bonds, honest and true. No longer are the days that the only time I have contact with people is when I instigate it. I always knew that was a sign of the true nature of my relationships with others, but I wasn't willing to face it. But now as part of my growth I must. For one thing I've changed and grown so much even my spiritual belief system has taken a new path and I find myself yearning for others who are not the same as I but at least tolerant, understanding and willing to be open to genuine connection. :-) This post may get me in trouble so I must make it clear that I'm not saying here that I don't like or care for my current friends. I'm just not sure where those friendships really lie. A couple folks I do have a clear understanding of what our friendship is and I enjoy what we share, but sometimes I just want more. I'm still as posted in past blogs am interested in that close girlfriend relationship. One that is close and not because the only conversations are of drama, strife and pain. It's important yes to be their for friends and I pride myself on that but I can't say I feel that I can feel as vulnerable with others. Hell I sometimes struggle with that with my husband, but I do eventually find total comfort in sharing with him. He's a great listener and always willing to help and support me. But the sisterhood in my opinion is so important and still lacking.
Hoping through meditation and self reflection to be able to make myself open and available to sister-friendship :-)
Light and love
thanks for letting me get it out
me :-)
I do plan to work on figuring out which friendships are indeed natural bonds, honest and true. No longer are the days that the only time I have contact with people is when I instigate it. I always knew that was a sign of the true nature of my relationships with others, but I wasn't willing to face it. But now as part of my growth I must. For one thing I've changed and grown so much even my spiritual belief system has taken a new path and I find myself yearning for others who are not the same as I but at least tolerant, understanding and willing to be open to genuine connection. :-) This post may get me in trouble so I must make it clear that I'm not saying here that I don't like or care for my current friends. I'm just not sure where those friendships really lie. A couple folks I do have a clear understanding of what our friendship is and I enjoy what we share, but sometimes I just want more. I'm still as posted in past blogs am interested in that close girlfriend relationship. One that is close and not because the only conversations are of drama, strife and pain. It's important yes to be their for friends and I pride myself on that but I can't say I feel that I can feel as vulnerable with others. Hell I sometimes struggle with that with my husband, but I do eventually find total comfort in sharing with him. He's a great listener and always willing to help and support me. But the sisterhood in my opinion is so important and still lacking.
Hoping through meditation and self reflection to be able to make myself open and available to sister-friendship :-)
Light and love
thanks for letting me get it out
me :-)
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Tiring full moon
Hello!
The fuzzy full moon photo was taken 5am this morning on my cell phone as I headed to work. I really need to purchase a decent camera with a lens attachment for the moon pics. But for now I'm happy to honor the moon as best I can. I'm so drawn to it, I simply must snap shots.
What followed was a very busy work day that completely wore me out. All I wanted to do was go home afterwards and nap or laze about. That didn't happen. Hubby, granddaughter and I took a 1 mile trail walk and stopped at a couple stores. Wore all of us completely out.
Today I learned how our society puts human value based on what you own and look like. The idea that it's completely acceptable to go into debt with loans/credit to own the recent car, t.v., shoes ... for others to see us in is pretty scary to me. I only allow debt in several cases: our mortgage, student loans and medical bills above our insurance. I desperately need an improved car, but the prospect of possibly needing financing and picking up a monthly bill is causing me considerable concern and worry. I'm hoping to find a used car I can buy out right cash, or pay off in less than 6 months. Fingers crossed.
Well that's about all my fingers can take posting from my phone. Now off to bed with my tummy full of sausage pizza and peach soda.
Goodnight, sweet dreams and blessed full moon.
Love and light
Me :-)
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
"Nothing is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change." ~ Mary Shelley .. Frankenstein
Today nothing proved more true than the change in "furniture" on our mail sorting floor at work last night that the staff walked in on this morning. This change did not affect any of their personal working spaces, created larger space to maneuver about (a big complaint of said staff) when coming and going and made it easier for them to handle their equipment without having to roam about to retrieve certain items. The only person(s) that it did affect were myself and 3 other staff members who use the items that were moved around to sort out mail going to the other staff.
This did not however make any difference in their response. In fact a couple complained so much you would really think their personal work space was moved and changed (it wasn't). I tried remaining pleasant, showing how
much I enjoyed the breath of fresh air in the changes and tried reassuring them that not only was I aware of the changes, I was o.k. with them. Because in truth I love change, I thrive on it. Always have.
Eventually the "whining" got under my skin and I let them know how I felt about the "whining" as I interpreted it and explained why I'm happy about the move, how it helps me to serve them better getting their items to them in a timely matter as well as making it easier for them to function within the building. Of course I got still more "whining" and eventually the shrug of coerced agreement.
I understand that change is difficult for many if not most. I understand that their response is their's and their's alone and I mustn't judge or react to it. But I just felt a little bristly and annoyed and wanted to at least say my piece. I did leave it open that I'm completely ok with any suggestions and changes made as it is a work in process and tweaks are to be expected. I hope that my willingness to accept any changes and to continue to work happily along with them (which is my truth) will encourage others to maybe re-think their response and how they let such small things affect them so much.
Also it's important for me to remember I don't know their day to day life. What transpired last night, this morning or last week even that may put that person in a place that just doesn't allow them to accept one more change without a break of some sort. I am blessed and thankful that for me that is rarely the case and that I am open to going with the flow.
but still...give me a break! :-)
** I'm happy to return to blogging just to get my thoughts out and being able to return here and there to see where I've been and where I'm growing...is their growth? **
blessings and light
me :-)
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Happy Samhain Everyone!
Hello!
Blessed Samhain & Happy Halloween!
It's my favorite time of year. This year we're pretty much doing the usual. Giving out candy & feasting. Taking grandbaby out for the 1st time to trick-or-treating.
I will be the very adorable witch as always :-) sipping on witches brew... which is a wine of the same name. It's delicious.
After the festivities, hoping we can boot our children out of here to relax, watch any scary stuff on t.v. until bedtime. Hubby & I have to work in the morning. Yeah... we party hardcore! ;-)
Tomorrow we'll put up an altar for our loved ones in celebration of Dia de los muertos. I love honoring & welcoming our loved ones passed to continue guiding us. Plus we celebrate their lives, what they meant to us & how blessed we are to have experienced them. <3
Blessings of light & love to you all
Me :-)
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
What do I wish to reflect on? WW
Good Wishcasting Wednesday :-)
http://jamieridlerstudios.ca/wishcasting-wednesday-what-do-you-wish-to-reflect-on (please join in!)
Today's question:
What do I wish to reflect on?
hmmmm let's just say a LOT! But that being said I will make this as short as possible.
I would love to reflect on my current life space and experience. Where I am now and what led me here. I would love to reflect on (and will) my marriage. Why it works so well, how did we get in this space and how to make sure it continues. So blessed with an amazing marriage and husband.
I would love to reflect on what in my life's experiences put me in a place where I struggle opening up to people. Why don't I share my deepest worries and concerns to share with a trusted friend who can possibly offer further insight and different angles as I try to resolve any issues. I know it's partly because I've created a friend environment that allows them to be open and honest with me and I take great pride in being a good listener and easy to talk to. But I'm not comfortable being a good talker and sharer. Which hinders my friendships.
I would love to reflect on my relationships with my daughters. What have I taught or given them during the process of raising them and loving them. Did I treat them with respect, honor and as humans not children that I have to control? It's important to me to assist them in building self confidence and love for themselves. Have I done that? If so, how and is it possible to help convey how to do the same to others? Especially my daughters as they begin to Mother.
I would love to reflect on my current status of self love. Where is it now? Am I being honest with myself when I say I love myself, I'm happy with who I am etc? I want to take the time to reflect on the words and what do they mean to me. How do I know if I'm being honest and if not what should I do to get where I want to be.
Oh so many things to reflect on. I'm so thankful to Jamie for this weeks question and thankful that I looked it up to participate today. Now I can reflect on what's important to me and take the necessary steps to get where I want and need to be to continue growing.
enjoy your day
As you wish, I joyfully wish for you as well.
Peace and Light
Me :-)
http://jamieridlerstudios.ca/wishcasting-wednesday-what-do-you-wish-to-reflect-on (please join in!)
Today's question:
What do I wish to reflect on?
hmmmm let's just say a LOT! But that being said I will make this as short as possible.
I would love to reflect on my current life space and experience. Where I am now and what led me here. I would love to reflect on (and will) my marriage. Why it works so well, how did we get in this space and how to make sure it continues. So blessed with an amazing marriage and husband.
I would love to reflect on what in my life's experiences put me in a place where I struggle opening up to people. Why don't I share my deepest worries and concerns to share with a trusted friend who can possibly offer further insight and different angles as I try to resolve any issues. I know it's partly because I've created a friend environment that allows them to be open and honest with me and I take great pride in being a good listener and easy to talk to. But I'm not comfortable being a good talker and sharer. Which hinders my friendships.
I would love to reflect on my relationships with my daughters. What have I taught or given them during the process of raising them and loving them. Did I treat them with respect, honor and as humans not children that I have to control? It's important to me to assist them in building self confidence and love for themselves. Have I done that? If so, how and is it possible to help convey how to do the same to others? Especially my daughters as they begin to Mother.
I would love to reflect on my current status of self love. Where is it now? Am I being honest with myself when I say I love myself, I'm happy with who I am etc? I want to take the time to reflect on the words and what do they mean to me. How do I know if I'm being honest and if not what should I do to get where I want to be.
Oh so many things to reflect on. I'm so thankful to Jamie for this weeks question and thankful that I looked it up to participate today. Now I can reflect on what's important to me and take the necessary steps to get where I want and need to be to continue growing.
enjoy your day
As you wish, I joyfully wish for you as well.
Peace and Light
Me :-)
Monday, September 10, 2012
Hello and Merry Monday to you all!
Brrr... it's chilly around here, Fall is tip-toeing in and I couldn't be more happier! It's a revival for my soul. The crisp days and nights, fall leaves/colors, pumpkins, apples, baking, cider, sweaters and cuddling to stay warm on the couch with my honey <3
Was able to get my daughter schooling paid and signed up and she's going to have a difficult six weeks being a single mommy. Classes are Monday-Friday 8am-2:30pm and some days she will work 5:30pm-10pm afterwards. Those six weeks also include her clinicals and testing. But I told her just make it through the six weeks lean on family as much as possible we're prepared and willing and she will reap great rewards once finished and she finds that new job! A very good friend of her's Mother is a supervisor (I'm not sure what unit) at a local hospital and told her to contact her once she's finished! So I have high hopes and am very excited for the path she's going down.
Sunday we went to my Father's home to celebrate September birthdays. He grilled up some yummies and made delicious sides :-) My mom came and my aunt which was nice. I love that even though our parents are divorced (now 13 years) we still can gather as a family including my stepmom and 1/2 siblings (I don't use that term because they are just my siblings to me, but just to clarify the situation). Though I think it difficult for those of us who grew up in the house and my mom to see some areas of the house in what we consider a mess. I guess it's up to who you are and how you see it. My stepmom is a hoarder and unfortunately it has taken over the once beautiful formal dining room we grew up with and you can't get in it at all. So we just pretend to not notice as we don't live there anymore and that's between her and my father. But we had a blast and sang and ate cupcakes and laughed laughed laughed. The only mistake I made was the trampoline which at the time I loved loved loved! But a person with my joint condition should NEVER trampoline jump and I'm STILL paying for it (ouch!!) oh well I'm still actually considering getting one for our backyard.
Came home watched my shows last night: Long Island Medium and Real Housewives of New Jersey (no I'm not ashamed of my love for reality shows). Went to bed and did not sleep AT ALL!! O_o which totally sucked.
Went to work was BURIED in mail (it was a hot mess for us today) but we worked our arse off and got it all done! My postmaster had to help out but that's ok, it's good for him. Until he complained about breaking 1-bead of sweat! (whatever). I found it terribly distressing that the coworker that chaffs my arse because she does NOT do her job pretty much 93% (no joke) of the time. She sees nothing through just work 1/2 done, 1/2 cleaned up and 1/2 worked in piles all over the damn place. I spent a portion of my morning cleaning up, going through and finishing her crap from last week! I've tried the complain, confront, alerting higher ups and mild threats. The mild threats kinda work for a week then ... back to the old. No one holds her to it, no one writes her up and if they do confront her she gets an attitude that they don't want to deal with. I swear they chock it up to her being moody and having adhd. I get it, she has meds, it's a choice I watch her make on a regular basis to NOT do her work, she knows eventually someone will do it, can't let mail just sit. It's irritating.
So now this week's agenda includes: a viewing in the man cave with my honey of Monty Python's Holy Grail! Probably a couple runs to our favorite movie theater, Brisk afternoon walks on the trails :-) crocheting mats for the local human society animal cages and Sunday we're going to the apple orchard!
peace and love to you all :-)
me!
Brrr... it's chilly around here, Fall is tip-toeing in and I couldn't be more happier! It's a revival for my soul. The crisp days and nights, fall leaves/colors, pumpkins, apples, baking, cider, sweaters and cuddling to stay warm on the couch with my honey <3
Was able to get my daughter schooling paid and signed up and she's going to have a difficult six weeks being a single mommy. Classes are Monday-Friday 8am-2:30pm and some days she will work 5:30pm-10pm afterwards. Those six weeks also include her clinicals and testing. But I told her just make it through the six weeks lean on family as much as possible we're prepared and willing and she will reap great rewards once finished and she finds that new job! A very good friend of her's Mother is a supervisor (I'm not sure what unit) at a local hospital and told her to contact her once she's finished! So I have high hopes and am very excited for the path she's going down.
Sunday we went to my Father's home to celebrate September birthdays. He grilled up some yummies and made delicious sides :-) My mom came and my aunt which was nice. I love that even though our parents are divorced (now 13 years) we still can gather as a family including my stepmom and 1/2 siblings (I don't use that term because they are just my siblings to me, but just to clarify the situation). Though I think it difficult for those of us who grew up in the house and my mom to see some areas of the house in what we consider a mess. I guess it's up to who you are and how you see it. My stepmom is a hoarder and unfortunately it has taken over the once beautiful formal dining room we grew up with and you can't get in it at all. So we just pretend to not notice as we don't live there anymore and that's between her and my father. But we had a blast and sang and ate cupcakes and laughed laughed laughed. The only mistake I made was the trampoline which at the time I loved loved loved! But a person with my joint condition should NEVER trampoline jump and I'm STILL paying for it (ouch!!) oh well I'm still actually considering getting one for our backyard.
Came home watched my shows last night: Long Island Medium and Real Housewives of New Jersey (no I'm not ashamed of my love for reality shows). Went to bed and did not sleep AT ALL!! O_o which totally sucked.
Went to work was BURIED in mail (it was a hot mess for us today) but we worked our arse off and got it all done! My postmaster had to help out but that's ok, it's good for him. Until he complained about breaking 1-bead of sweat! (whatever). I found it terribly distressing that the coworker that chaffs my arse because she does NOT do her job pretty much 93% (no joke) of the time. She sees nothing through just work 1/2 done, 1/2 cleaned up and 1/2 worked in piles all over the damn place. I spent a portion of my morning cleaning up, going through and finishing her crap from last week! I've tried the complain, confront, alerting higher ups and mild threats. The mild threats kinda work for a week then ... back to the old. No one holds her to it, no one writes her up and if they do confront her she gets an attitude that they don't want to deal with. I swear they chock it up to her being moody and having adhd. I get it, she has meds, it's a choice I watch her make on a regular basis to NOT do her work, she knows eventually someone will do it, can't let mail just sit. It's irritating.
So now this week's agenda includes: a viewing in the man cave with my honey of Monty Python's Holy Grail! Probably a couple runs to our favorite movie theater, Brisk afternoon walks on the trails :-) crocheting mats for the local human society animal cages and Sunday we're going to the apple orchard!
peace and love to you all :-)
me!
Friday, September 7, 2012
Life catch up and a-ha! moment :-)
It's Thursday Sept 6, 2012 and it's been a long while since I've visited my dear sweet blog. I often think of it and at times dream of running and typing up my rant of the moment. But I hesitate and get distracted by shiny things flittering by.
Today I'm sitting here because right now if it involves sitting, I'm in.
Woke up to a text from my coworker that she was not feeling well and will not be in to help me sort the mail from the trucks this morning. I felt a quiver of fear and concern and right before releasing a great big "dammit!" sigh. I sent her a text back telling her it was no prob, thanks for the heads up and get well soon. Quickly I got dressed, tried to brush my currently completely unruly hair (it really looked not much different than when I woke up), grabbed my bowl, spoon, 2packets of raisin n spice oatmeal and skidaddled to the post office. It's still dark as night at 4:30am around here and the town is fast asleep. It takes about 5 minutes (seriously) for what during the middle of the day takes 15 minutes to get there. Upon pulling into the parking lot, I thought I saw a raccoon lumber onto our dock and hurried out of the car to take an instagram (I'm obsessed) but upon closer look I realized it was a cute kitty that didn't allow me to get too close and my picture that was going to be titled "Postal Parking Lot Kitty" was more like "Fuzzy strange glowing eyes in the darkness" or "what the hell is that?" lol so it didn't make it as my 1st instagram of the day.
Our mail volume was the usual. So I took my pain meds, warmed up my oatmeal and cracked open a bottle of water. Put 99.1 Wfmk on the radio, turned on the ceiling fans, and got to work. Sweat pouring and singing/dancing around at a swift pace I was able to get it all done and was in fact ahead by the time the carriers started showing up 2 hours later. What I learned was that except for Mondays and days following holidays, I can do the mail sort all by myself (though it would seriously kill me physically because I am whipped!) and that the carriers can count on me to not hold them up in the event that the other morning clerk is unable to come to work and that feels good! :-)
After work I had some running to do. Picked up our oldest daughter, stopped at our house at my left over riblets from Applebee's from said daughter's birthday late night dinner with family the night before. Then we drove out to a mall where she just got a job with a portrait studio (yay my $$ on tuition for New York Institute of Photography is paying off as they were ecstatic at her knowledge and experience) to get paperwork finished (her car's out of commission at the moment) then they sent us back into town to our bank to get paperwork for direct deposit, went back to the mall (in between stopped for gas and hit up Grand Traverse Pie Co. for big-ass rice krispy treats - yum!), then to Biggby (coffee!!) and back home. It took all of the remainder of the morning and I'm already working on very little energy remaining. Wish I could stop and pump in energy like I do my car....hmmmm.
Once home got to work on the phone and computer to get information set up with a small loan from my bank (just 6months will pay off much earlier though) to help with tuition costs for our youngest daughter. Got it all squared away and ready to pick up tomorrow morning (yay!) then called the school and set up intake for after leaving bank tomorrow to get her signed up and her schooling starts in October!! I'm so so so very excited for both of our daughters they are phenomenal confident women and I truly enjoy just being a part of their world and adventures as they create and recreate their life paths. <3
Have been on grandbaby duty all week while youngest daughter works and will have her again this evening... I pray she hasn't had a nap and the 2 of us can go in my room, put on a boring movie or show, the fan and snooze away! But not before I run to pharmacy to get my meds refill and pick up a few items. Plus I need to change kitty litter boxes as my handsome hubby is still healing from a minor surgery he had last week and really shouldn't lift the heavy bags. Poor guy it's killing him, he hates not being able to do things himself and worse having me do it, which I don't mind, but he just loves to do things for me, take care of me. I'm truly blessed with this man! :-)
**Friday Sept 7 2012 (I was distracted and didn't finish, lol)
In other news. I've found my own little like-minded lil sisterhood tribe to gather with and I'm loving it. We're still in the very very very early stages of getting to know and trust each other but it comes easy with these women and I feel blessed.
I hope this will help me come out and trust people more I still struggle a LOT sharing with anyone other than my husband and daughters. It's my own fault that I don't have that super close girlfriend I crave because I'm just not in a place yet where I can feel comfortable trusting. I watched a wonderful episode of Super Soul Sunday on OWN (Oprah's network) for the Life Class show. She had Ilyana Vanzant on and they were discussing with the audience how and why women hurt each other. I have my entire life watched women whisper lie and gossip about each other behind the backs of their family and friends and I'm not saying I've never been a part of that because I have. But this show changed my perspective and woke me up to the real problem that exists out there. Women need close bonds with other women. We still have close bonds with other women even though there's a lot of behind the scenes talking going on. I want to have a more authentic relationship with the women in my life. I think there's a lot of power in the bond and even more so if it's based on openness and honesty.
so the work begins
hope all are well
blessings of love and light
me.
Today I'm sitting here because right now if it involves sitting, I'm in.
Woke up to a text from my coworker that she was not feeling well and will not be in to help me sort the mail from the trucks this morning. I felt a quiver of fear and concern and right before releasing a great big "dammit!" sigh. I sent her a text back telling her it was no prob, thanks for the heads up and get well soon. Quickly I got dressed, tried to brush my currently completely unruly hair (it really looked not much different than when I woke up), grabbed my bowl, spoon, 2packets of raisin n spice oatmeal and skidaddled to the post office. It's still dark as night at 4:30am around here and the town is fast asleep. It takes about 5 minutes (seriously) for what during the middle of the day takes 15 minutes to get there. Upon pulling into the parking lot, I thought I saw a raccoon lumber onto our dock and hurried out of the car to take an instagram (I'm obsessed) but upon closer look I realized it was a cute kitty that didn't allow me to get too close and my picture that was going to be titled "Postal Parking Lot Kitty" was more like "Fuzzy strange glowing eyes in the darkness" or "what the hell is that?" lol so it didn't make it as my 1st instagram of the day.
Our mail volume was the usual. So I took my pain meds, warmed up my oatmeal and cracked open a bottle of water. Put 99.1 Wfmk on the radio, turned on the ceiling fans, and got to work. Sweat pouring and singing/dancing around at a swift pace I was able to get it all done and was in fact ahead by the time the carriers started showing up 2 hours later. What I learned was that except for Mondays and days following holidays, I can do the mail sort all by myself (though it would seriously kill me physically because I am whipped!) and that the carriers can count on me to not hold them up in the event that the other morning clerk is unable to come to work and that feels good! :-)
After work I had some running to do. Picked up our oldest daughter, stopped at our house at my left over riblets from Applebee's from said daughter's birthday late night dinner with family the night before. Then we drove out to a mall where she just got a job with a portrait studio (yay my $$ on tuition for New York Institute of Photography is paying off as they were ecstatic at her knowledge and experience) to get paperwork finished (her car's out of commission at the moment) then they sent us back into town to our bank to get paperwork for direct deposit, went back to the mall (in between stopped for gas and hit up Grand Traverse Pie Co. for big-ass rice krispy treats - yum!), then to Biggby (coffee!!) and back home. It took all of the remainder of the morning and I'm already working on very little energy remaining. Wish I could stop and pump in energy like I do my car....hmmmm.
Once home got to work on the phone and computer to get information set up with a small loan from my bank (just 6months will pay off much earlier though) to help with tuition costs for our youngest daughter. Got it all squared away and ready to pick up tomorrow morning (yay!) then called the school and set up intake for after leaving bank tomorrow to get her signed up and her schooling starts in October!! I'm so so so very excited for both of our daughters they are phenomenal confident women and I truly enjoy just being a part of their world and adventures as they create and recreate their life paths. <3
Have been on grandbaby duty all week while youngest daughter works and will have her again this evening... I pray she hasn't had a nap and the 2 of us can go in my room, put on a boring movie or show, the fan and snooze away! But not before I run to pharmacy to get my meds refill and pick up a few items. Plus I need to change kitty litter boxes as my handsome hubby is still healing from a minor surgery he had last week and really shouldn't lift the heavy bags. Poor guy it's killing him, he hates not being able to do things himself and worse having me do it, which I don't mind, but he just loves to do things for me, take care of me. I'm truly blessed with this man! :-)
**Friday Sept 7 2012 (I was distracted and didn't finish, lol)
In other news. I've found my own little like-minded lil sisterhood tribe to gather with and I'm loving it. We're still in the very very very early stages of getting to know and trust each other but it comes easy with these women and I feel blessed.
I hope this will help me come out and trust people more I still struggle a LOT sharing with anyone other than my husband and daughters. It's my own fault that I don't have that super close girlfriend I crave because I'm just not in a place yet where I can feel comfortable trusting. I watched a wonderful episode of Super Soul Sunday on OWN (Oprah's network) for the Life Class show. She had Ilyana Vanzant on and they were discussing with the audience how and why women hurt each other. I have my entire life watched women whisper lie and gossip about each other behind the backs of their family and friends and I'm not saying I've never been a part of that because I have. But this show changed my perspective and woke me up to the real problem that exists out there. Women need close bonds with other women. We still have close bonds with other women even though there's a lot of behind the scenes talking going on. I want to have a more authentic relationship with the women in my life. I think there's a lot of power in the bond and even more so if it's based on openness and honesty.
so the work begins
hope all are well
blessings of love and light
me.
Monday, July 2, 2012
mmm a little work rant
Hello :-)
What a day. It started with smile at 4am as I rose for work. Mondays are a very heavy volume day so you have to start in a good place. I got to work on time, one of the other coworkers was there when I got there. Unfortunately the 3rd one wasn't yet and that's how things started to turn sour for me.
Saturday who ever works and closes knows because I say it over and over and over again how important it is to make sure that all is taken care of, finished and set up for Monday morning because whoever is opening have a LOT to do and it's stressful to have to clean up from Saturday a much slower day where it is easy to get everything done and set up. For this reason I do not leave Saturdays until the place is in tip-top shape because I don't want the stress for myself on Monday and if I'm off, not for anyone else either.
So imagine how
He offered to buy me breakfast everyday. In other words. He joked about it and threw his hands up in the air he hasn't a clue what to do.
I have a list of what he can do. It starts with letters of warnings etc followed by suspensions if no change and then the ultimate. Had he done this years ago, his life wouldn't be so stressful. He too said he's really getting worn out with having to go behind and fix things etc. He hasn't a clue what I go through all day finding and sorting through random piles of mail forgotten or mishandled.
ok
I am about finished with my vent I think.
grrrr ugh ... grr!
;-)
Affirmation: “I handle difficult situation with calm endurance”
Peace and love
me
Durga Goddess of Strength
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Weekend off :-) yay!
WEEKEND OFF!!
Oh yes thanks to the new rotating Saturday's off I have a 2 day weekend! Woot-woot! So far I've done a lot of not much (amen to that). Watched several movies and series episodes on Netflix. That Netflix is a God-Send! Kinda sorta cleaned (yeah right). Hung out with my handsome loving hubby, my hilarious daughters and their friends, the grandbaby of my dreams!! Really she's amazing :-) Grandbaby and I watched part of a Deadmau5 concert on Netflix, had a mini-rave and she was awesome. She has impeccable rhythm/timing, loves music and singing. She was bouncing and dancing and added vocals to the beats. Grandma was quite proud. Next time I'll get us some glow stick bracelets and head bands, do it up right!
Saw Ted in Theaters today, it was raunchy, inappropriate and completely worth it! I'm not sure everyone in the theater were prepared for Seth MacFarlane's humor as I heard a lot of "what?" and "omg" type comments and snarks. Lighten up people. I guess it pays to at least KNOW what type of humor the person that made the movie has before you go see it. Because if you are easily offended, you too will huff and sigh in between uncomfortable giggles that slip out beyond your control.
Had a run on Ravelry finding fun possible crochet projects. Right now I started a pattern aptly called The Easiest Crochet Shawl Recipe :-) using a skein of leftover black yarn :-) I have a bunch more in my que but I am easily distracted when it comes to crochet projects so 1 at a time. I will post a picture of it when I'm finished! Oh and if you like yarn crafts and haven't joined Ravelry yet, what are you waiting for? Get on it! There is EVERYTHING and many many many FREE patterns!
I've also made a final decision on my next 2 tattoos! 1st I'm getting a shoulder cap or something like that. It will be a spread of Maple leaves my astrological tree and in the center a spiral goddess probably blue or purple I think. I'm so excited for this one! Next I really want a peace sign painted rainbow style on my back. That will bring me up to 6 tattoos. I have a few more I know I want for sure but am still working on the design.
I hope all are doing well and enjoying the weekend
Peace and Light to you all
me
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Finding common ground
Hello and good Thursday.
It's a scorcher around these parts, hit 102 degrees F so I've only been outside to go to and from buildings to vehicles. My personal vehicle does not have air conditioning in it, so it remained parked for the majority of the day.
Have been battling a migraine for the past few days which I'm new at. I don't know if it's OK to take the Advil Migraine medicine along with my tramadol and muscle relaxer. But when the pain gets bad enough I just do it so that I can work and function. My life doesn't come to a stand still, I haven't allowed myself the luxury of locking myself in my room to recuperate. Mainly because I just don't know how this migraine business works. I must say I do not like nor understand the nausea that comes with it.
As most know I am African American and Pagan. Which where I live I've met 2 other people who are the same and I never see them at any gatherings or events. I would love very much to meet others and to learn about how they came to their beliefs etc. Luckily thanks to StumbleUpon I found a blog called Black Pagan which lead me through his posts to two other blogs: Black Witch and The Life of an African American Wiccan. I am excited to learn about and from others who may have some understandings based on upbringing and life experiences my experiences. It is difficult at times being mostly in the broom-closet as family is concerned. Family meaning not my DH, our children or my MIL who all know and are like minded themselves.
Often I find that I am disheartened at the lack of African-American representation in most anything I find online or in New Age stores. I would love to see depictions of faeries with brown skin as well as other beings. Of course there are many Gods and Goddesses with Oya being my favorite represented. The need to see a likeness, to recognize features that are dominant in my world is important I feel.
I don't say this to say I have problems with any depictions of any God, Goddess or magickal being in any other ethnic representation. I love celebrating Mother Earth, the Universe and the Spirit that is Love that guides and supports us all. I love the differences as well the common aspects of all and am thankful that I am on the path I am on today. Maybe it's a lesson I need to work on. To seek out and learn more about the Pagan cultures of different ethnicity that I feel I am lacking information in.
That was easy to come to.
It's always nice to type it out here, wrap my brain around it and then hash it out. Of course I truly appreciate all feedback and thank you readers.
in peace and love
me
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Wishcasting Wednesday: What is your heart's wish?
do join in!
This is a very difficult one it's hard to focus on my heart's wish without my head jumping in and influencing the answer. But I'll give it a try.
My heart's wish is for peace and harmony, easy days & nights, romance & joy.
Of course there are many specific items and ideas within those wishes to make them happen and that would take a lot of typing. I'm happy to recognize when I'm in any of those moments and fortunate that it is often. :-)
As you all wish for yourself, I happily wish for you as well
in peace and light
me
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
When creating my day goes wrong
I started my day picturing it one way and well it took a whole other path. First work: It started as usual. Then a call from the main building telling us our mail would be late. Well the letter mail. Was 1 hour late (which is a lot) and I had 6 trays (12 feet) of letters to sort manually to the carriers. It's usually 2-4 trays and on Tuesday barely 2 trays. Needless to say my hands and shoulders were shot after that.
Came home and just wanted peace and quiet and maybe a few episodes of Game of Thrones along with last night's True Blood. But my daughters had other plans. Spent the day here making me laugh, making a mess and well making our day. We love them and love time spent but it definitely took away my rest and relaxation time. Thankful for how close we are but I tell you at times I just want those quiet moments.
I recognize the importance of being flexible and open to change. Change is the normal flow of life and it's pointless to fight it or fret over it. My stress levels are practically non-existent and peace is accomplished with just a few short breaths now that I get it. Simplicity is key. Don't over think all situations. Things are how they are because they are how they are. I'm good with that.
In other news I've lost all interest in cooking EVER, lol! Hubby and I have had over embellished delicious salads for dinner tonight. My daughter's kept asking "what are you cooking?" To which I replied "nothing." My oldest decided to join and made a huge salad and my youngest went home and picked up a pizza. See? Simple. I'm sure I will pick up the cooking bug again soon. I'm in the process of trying new recipes and changing up our meal rotations. It was more difficult with the tastes of both daughters to factor into meals. Now it's just us two old farts who love to eat just about anything or at least try anything. Only difference is he loves seafood and I despise it. Maybe he will have to build up his cooking skills where seafood is concerned.
It's late and my alarm goes off in less than 5 hours. Nothing new about that, because that's usually when I'm finally getting to bed. 4 hours of sleep allows me to get out of bed rather easy as opposed to 5 or more hours which puts me in a bad joint situation.
Peace and light to you all
me
Came home and just wanted peace and quiet and maybe a few episodes of Game of Thrones along with last night's True Blood. But my daughters had other plans. Spent the day here making me laugh, making a mess and well making our day. We love them and love time spent but it definitely took away my rest and relaxation time. Thankful for how close we are but I tell you at times I just want those quiet moments.
I recognize the importance of being flexible and open to change. Change is the normal flow of life and it's pointless to fight it or fret over it. My stress levels are practically non-existent and peace is accomplished with just a few short breaths now that I get it. Simplicity is key. Don't over think all situations. Things are how they are because they are how they are. I'm good with that.
In other news I've lost all interest in cooking EVER, lol! Hubby and I have had over embellished delicious salads for dinner tonight. My daughter's kept asking "what are you cooking?" To which I replied "nothing." My oldest decided to join and made a huge salad and my youngest went home and picked up a pizza. See? Simple. I'm sure I will pick up the cooking bug again soon. I'm in the process of trying new recipes and changing up our meal rotations. It was more difficult with the tastes of both daughters to factor into meals. Now it's just us two old farts who love to eat just about anything or at least try anything. Only difference is he loves seafood and I despise it. Maybe he will have to build up his cooking skills where seafood is concerned.
It's late and my alarm goes off in less than 5 hours. Nothing new about that, because that's usually when I'm finally getting to bed. 4 hours of sleep allows me to get out of bed rather easy as opposed to 5 or more hours which puts me in a bad joint situation.
Peace and light to you all
me
Monday, June 25, 2012
Catch up. Midwifery, HMS and lymph nodes
It's Monday.
It's been a very long time since I blogged and right now I feel a draw to sorta journal/chronicle/diary my days.
I have often spoke of my love for birth, and the joy I experienced attending births in the past years including one home birth that really opened up my eyes and put a fire in my heart. Ever since I have chased the idea of becoming a midwife, a wild, home birth supporting midwife with a main focus on educating teen-aged moms.
So I found an online midwifery school, payed my 1st unit tuition, got my books and was even gifted a couple. I started the reading, note taking, adding on fb and twitter other midwifery/doula students and businesses. What excitement to talk about, learn about and even get invited to birth.
but,
I've learned something. I do not enjoy reading/studying ANY of the technical books at all! In fact I find every possible excuse to not even go near them. I'm not joking. Which started an honest and open conversation with myself. Which I'm no stranger to conversations with myself I pretty much hold them daily. I'm 40 years old. Am a full in part time postal employee with health and retirement benefits. I love my job, I love the building I work at and the people I work with. I am very happy there. Do I really want to change careers in a couple of years trying to make it happen on my own? No health insurance, no retirement and starting so late in age? The answer is "not really".
Where does that leave things? Well it leaves me still awaiting the final decision. For the most part I know how I feel. I don't want to feel like a failure or that I abandoned this idea for the wrong reasons. I'm also playing around with the idea of going another way with it. Become a birth and postpartum doula, lactation educator and birth educator focused on young parents. Give back to my community to those whom I can identify with because I was once 16 and pregnant.
It feels good to be in a place in my life I can just stop, review my circumstances, be honest with ME and then follow through on to the next step in my path without guilt, shame or what if's! I swear that as I get older I think less and less about what others think and keep it moving and I love it! <3
There are other places in my life mainly spirituality/beliefs that I still struggle with being able to be open and honest in the world with. It sucks at times but I'm comfortable in my own skin and am thankful to have a loving network of like minded folks who are there for me. :-)
My hypermobility syndrome joint pain has been increasing and my joints behaving very badly often trying or actually popping out. I haven't had any big falls or breaks thank goodness and I try to be extra cautious about how I move and react when they do behave badly. I am totally looking forward to my appointment next month with my rheumatologist hoping for some x-rays and work up to see how my joints and arthritis is faring thus far.
Also on a medical note. One of my lymph nodes in my right armpit swelled painfully. Which became a cause for alarm with all of the breast cancer around me. I called my doctor and made an appointment. But a couple days before the swelling and pain disappeared. I called my doctor to see if I should still go in because I really didn't feel like paying my copay if I didn't really need to. She suggested that if I'm really stressed/worried I should go ahead and come in. I wasn't. If not just keep an eye on it if it comes back, get my keester back in asap. I agreed with her suggestions and just leaving it at that for now.
I hope all are well :-) light love and blessings to you all
me
It's been a very long time since I blogged and right now I feel a draw to sorta journal/chronicle/diary my days.
I have often spoke of my love for birth, and the joy I experienced attending births in the past years including one home birth that really opened up my eyes and put a fire in my heart. Ever since I have chased the idea of becoming a midwife, a wild, home birth supporting midwife with a main focus on educating teen-aged moms.
So I found an online midwifery school, payed my 1st unit tuition, got my books and was even gifted a couple. I started the reading, note taking, adding on fb and twitter other midwifery/doula students and businesses. What excitement to talk about, learn about and even get invited to birth.
but,
I've learned something. I do not enjoy reading/studying ANY of the technical books at all! In fact I find every possible excuse to not even go near them. I'm not joking. Which started an honest and open conversation with myself. Which I'm no stranger to conversations with myself I pretty much hold them daily. I'm 40 years old. Am a full in part time postal employee with health and retirement benefits. I love my job, I love the building I work at and the people I work with. I am very happy there. Do I really want to change careers in a couple of years trying to make it happen on my own? No health insurance, no retirement and starting so late in age? The answer is "not really".
Where does that leave things? Well it leaves me still awaiting the final decision. For the most part I know how I feel. I don't want to feel like a failure or that I abandoned this idea for the wrong reasons. I'm also playing around with the idea of going another way with it. Become a birth and postpartum doula, lactation educator and birth educator focused on young parents. Give back to my community to those whom I can identify with because I was once 16 and pregnant.
It feels good to be in a place in my life I can just stop, review my circumstances, be honest with ME and then follow through on to the next step in my path without guilt, shame or what if's! I swear that as I get older I think less and less about what others think and keep it moving and I love it! <3
There are other places in my life mainly spirituality/beliefs that I still struggle with being able to be open and honest in the world with. It sucks at times but I'm comfortable in my own skin and am thankful to have a loving network of like minded folks who are there for me. :-)
My hypermobility syndrome joint pain has been increasing and my joints behaving very badly often trying or actually popping out. I haven't had any big falls or breaks thank goodness and I try to be extra cautious about how I move and react when they do behave badly. I am totally looking forward to my appointment next month with my rheumatologist hoping for some x-rays and work up to see how my joints and arthritis is faring thus far.
Also on a medical note. One of my lymph nodes in my right armpit swelled painfully. Which became a cause for alarm with all of the breast cancer around me. I called my doctor and made an appointment. But a couple days before the swelling and pain disappeared. I called my doctor to see if I should still go in because I really didn't feel like paying my copay if I didn't really need to. She suggested that if I'm really stressed/worried I should go ahead and come in. I wasn't. If not just keep an eye on it if it comes back, get my keester back in asap. I agreed with her suggestions and just leaving it at that for now.
I hope all are well :-) light love and blessings to you all
me
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Wishcasting Wednesday: Walking Away
It feels good to return to Wishcasting Wednesday!
Today Jamie Ridler asks
"What do you wish to walk away from?"
I wish to walk away from joint pain, fatigue and limited movement.
I wish to walk away from relationships that are more work than it should ever take to just stay on an even keel. Or possibly walk away from whatever it is in me that halts the free flow of a loving and trusting relationship with my friends.
I wish to walk away from debt and any unhealthy ties to consumerism.
I wish to walk away from worry and the creepy crawlies that enter my brain from watching the news.
I wish to walk away from those who would harm me on sight and sight alone.
I wish to walk away from any situation, person, place or thing that brings me harm even if it's chipping at me slowly so much so I don't realize it. I wish to have the ability to KNOW immediately what's simply not "right" for me.
I wish to walk away from jealousy and fear. Especially when I allow someone to make me feel inferior to them because apparently their way or life is the better way according to them.
As I wish for myself I wish the same for all of you out there in your wishes :-)
peace and light
Anna
p.s. I wish to walk away from this slow ass netbook and get me a new one, lol!!
Today Jamie Ridler asks
"What do you wish to walk away from?"
I wish to walk away from joint pain, fatigue and limited movement.
I wish to walk away from relationships that are more work than it should ever take to just stay on an even keel. Or possibly walk away from whatever it is in me that halts the free flow of a loving and trusting relationship with my friends.
I wish to walk away from debt and any unhealthy ties to consumerism.
I wish to walk away from worry and the creepy crawlies that enter my brain from watching the news.
I wish to walk away from those who would harm me on sight and sight alone.
I wish to walk away from any situation, person, place or thing that brings me harm even if it's chipping at me slowly so much so I don't realize it. I wish to have the ability to KNOW immediately what's simply not "right" for me.
I wish to walk away from jealousy and fear. Especially when I allow someone to make me feel inferior to them because apparently their way or life is the better way according to them.
As I wish for myself I wish the same for all of you out there in your wishes :-)
peace and light
Anna
p.s. I wish to walk away from this slow ass netbook and get me a new one, lol!!
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