Monday, January 30, 2012
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Good Thursday morning :) last night I went to bed about 2:30am knowing I would be able to "sleep in" til 7am. With my joints being so loose all over, when lying down they slip out of place. So the longer I lay there, the more painful my morning is though taking my meds before & strategic pillow placement does help.
Working a traditional "9 to 5 (actually about 5:30 or 6)" at the post office & I'm not looking forward to it, I'm sure to lose steam as the day goes purely out of pain & boredom. I can't wait to devote more of my time & life Midwifery <3
Prayerfully my hubby will take over dinner. Of course I will text him a hint.
Tomorrow I'm thinking off making home made refried beans & chicken/cheese enchiladas will post pics/recipe as I go along!
Light & Love
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
today I'm in a place of struggle. I work with someone who puts me in the position of having to follow behind them and clean up their piles, do their work, which in turn postpones mine. The problem is I've discussed this with our boss time after time and well either what he's doing isn't working or he's just not doing anything at all. Meanwhile if I don't tackle the things not getting done, we are reprimanded together for it. Which really pisses me off. I guess he's trying to be diplomatic and not pointing fingers directly but I say enough is enough it's time to call it like it is and let this person know they are the ones. What's worse is it's starting to put me in a position where I'm sorta reprimanding her myself and well I simply don't get paid to do that.
In other news I've officially signed up for my midwifery course, have a few books, waiting on a couple more to really delve into my studying and work. I'm looking forward to it. I've emailed a local birthing center for volunteer/apprentice opportunities and put the word out that I want to attend births and maybe some folks should just get pregnant to help me out, lol ;-)
Grandbaby is growing by leaps and bounds. Will be 1year old on St Patty's we're trying to find a bday venue to fit everyone...grr. She's standing on her own, walking with her push toy, but not quite on her own yet, she doesn't fully trust it though she tries once in a while. She's imitating our words and have figured out what some mean and use them properly. she loves books, she will bring them to us to read and at times "reads" them to herself. Which fills me with joy. Her mommy is doing wonderful and I'm very proud of her.
My oldest is still in her photography program and doing well. She's still teaching dance and I'm not sure if she'll ever walk away from that job, she loves the little kids so much.
Hubby and I are doing well, we both want very much to live healthier so that we can enjoy life more and longer together. So we're watching our home cooked meals and improving daily. He's into his video games and taking me to movies mostly when he's not working on other computers for folks around town.
My pain/fatigue are still very much a part of my life and I've made peace with the fact that that is my lifetime reality. Hyper mobile joints, arthritis and degeneration aren't something I can stop but I can learn to manage it and slow the process. Movement is key and strengthening the muscles supporting the joints to help them stay in place as much as possible. My doctor took me off of my arthritis med thank goodness, though I didn't have the heart to tell her that I had already taken myself off of it. Her concern as well as mines, is that it attacks the kidneys a little every time I take it as well as cause tummy discomfort, etc. So since my pain med/muscle relaxer both work well, don't cause tummy issues and are working fine at their low doses, I'm good to go.
I think that's pretty much a good catch up. Not reading anything other than birth books right now though I do have sitting here on my next To Be Read (TBR) pile "A Discovery of Witches" by Deborah Harkness has anyone read it?
Light and Love to you all
ps need a new look... where's a good place to check out templates for this blog??
Monday, January 9, 2012
Good Monday & Happy Full Moon in Cancer. :) I'm making a quick post on my mobile phone (cool).
Today my intentions in celebrating this moon are focused on moving forward with my decision to study Midwifery. Allowing balance with my family life, social life & current job.
I am thankful for the surge of confidence & renewal the new year has brought for not only myself, but for many. I can see & feel the shift in my life & those surrounding me.
Blessings to you all
Friday, January 6, 2012
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
I'm willing to bet many have the same answer. I wish to make peace with ME
I am my own worse distraction, down talker and even hater. Whenever I feel inadequate in comparison to others, it's not because someone has said things to make me feel or think that way, it's because of my perception of what I think they are thinking/feeling. Whenever I choose to not go forward with an interest, dream or adventure, it's due to my own personal fears that start asking "what if...?" and once that starts I turn with my tail in between my legs and tip toe away.
I need to make peace with who I am, what I feel, what I want and what I need. It's ok to have dreams... it's even better to pursue them.
Here's to raising the energy needed to overcome and live in the moment. :-)
thanks for reading!
As you wish for yourself, I joyfully wish for you as well.
peace and love <3