Saturday, June 30, 2012

Weekend off :-) yay!


Oh yes thanks to the new rotating Saturday's off I have a 2 day weekend! Woot-woot! So far I've done a lot of not much (amen to that). Watched several movies and series episodes on Netflix. That Netflix is a God-Send! Kinda sorta cleaned (yeah right). Hung out with my handsome loving hubby, my hilarious daughters and their friends, the grandbaby of my dreams!! Really she's amazing :-) Grandbaby and I watched part of a Deadmau5 concert on Netflix, had a mini-rave and she was awesome. She has impeccable rhythm/timing, loves music and singing. She was bouncing and dancing and added vocals to the beats. Grandma was quite proud. Next time I'll get us some glow stick bracelets and head bands, do it up right!

Saw Ted in Theaters today, it was raunchy, inappropriate and completely worth it! I'm not sure everyone in the theater were prepared for Seth MacFarlane's humor as I heard a lot of "what?" and "omg" type comments and snarks. Lighten up people. I guess it pays to at least KNOW what type of humor the person that made the movie has before you go see it. Because if you are easily offended, you too will huff and sigh in between uncomfortable giggles that slip out beyond your control.

Had a run on Ravelry finding fun possible crochet projects. Right now I started a pattern aptly called The Easiest Crochet Shawl Recipe :-) using a skein of leftover black yarn :-) I have a bunch more in my que but I am easily distracted when it comes to crochet projects so 1 at a time. I will post a picture of it when I'm finished! Oh and if you like yarn crafts and haven't joined Ravelry yet, what are you waiting for? Get on it! There is EVERYTHING and many many many FREE patterns!

I've also made a final decision on my next 2 tattoos! 1st I'm getting a shoulder cap or something like that. It will be a spread of Maple leaves my astrological tree and in the center a spiral goddess probably blue or purple I think. I'm so excited for this one! Next I really want a peace sign painted rainbow style on my back. That will bring me up to 6 tattoos. I have a few more I know I want for sure but am still working on the design.

I hope all are doing well and enjoying the weekend

Peace and Light to you all

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Finding common ground

Hello and good Thursday.

It's a scorcher around these parts, hit 102 degrees F so I've only been outside to go to and from buildings to vehicles. My personal vehicle does not have air conditioning in it, so it remained parked for the majority of the day.

Have been battling a migraine for the past few days which I'm new at. I don't know if it's OK to take the Advil Migraine medicine along with my tramadol and muscle relaxer. But when the pain gets bad enough I just do it so that I can work and function. My life doesn't come to a stand still, I haven't allowed myself the luxury of locking myself in my room to recuperate. Mainly because I just don't know how this migraine business works. I must say I do not like nor understand the nausea that comes with it.

As most know I am African American and Pagan. Which where I live I've met 2 other people who are the same and I never see them at any gatherings or events. I would love very much to meet others and to learn about how they came to their beliefs etc. Luckily thanks to StumbleUpon I found a blog called Black Pagan which lead me through his posts to two other blogs: Black Witch and The Life of an African American Wiccan. I am excited to learn about and from others who may have some understandings based on upbringing and life experiences my experiences. It is difficult at times being mostly in the broom-closet as family is concerned. Family meaning not my DH, our children or my MIL who all know and are like minded themselves. 

Often I find that I am disheartened at the lack of African-American representation in most anything I find online or in New Age stores. I would love to see depictions of faeries with brown skin as well as other beings. Of course there are many Gods and Goddesses with Oya being my favorite represented. The need to see a likeness, to recognize features that are dominant in my world is important I feel. 

I don't say this to say I have problems with any depictions of any God, Goddess or magickal being in any other ethnic representation. I love celebrating  Mother Earth, the Universe and the Spirit that is Love that guides and supports us all. I love the differences as well the common aspects of all and am thankful that I am on the path I am on today. Maybe it's a lesson I need to work on. To seek out and learn more about the Pagan cultures of different ethnicity that I feel I am lacking information in. 

That was easy to come to.

It's always nice to type it out here, wrap my brain around it and then hash it out. Of course I truly appreciate all feedback and thank you readers.

in peace and love

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Wishcasting Wednesday: What is your heart's wish?

do join in!

This is a very difficult one it's hard to focus on my heart's wish without my head jumping in and influencing the answer. But I'll give it a try.

My heart's wish is for peace and harmony, easy days & nights, romance & joy.

Of course there are many specific items and ideas within those wishes to make them happen and that would take a lot of typing. I'm happy to recognize when I'm in any of those moments and fortunate that it is often. :-)

As you all wish for yourself, I happily wish for you as well

in peace and light

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

When creating my day goes wrong

I started my day picturing it one way and well it took a whole other path. First work: It started as usual. Then a call from the main building telling us our mail would be late. Well the letter mail. Was 1 hour late (which is a lot) and I had 6 trays (12 feet) of letters to sort manually to the carriers. It's usually 2-4 trays and on Tuesday barely 2 trays. Needless to say my hands and shoulders were shot after that.

Came home and just wanted peace and quiet and maybe a few episodes of Game of Thrones along with last night's True Blood. But my daughters had other plans. Spent the day here making me laugh, making a mess and well making our day. We love them and love time spent but it definitely took away my rest and relaxation time. Thankful for how close we are but I tell you at times I just want those quiet moments.

I recognize the importance of being flexible and open to change. Change is the normal flow of life and it's pointless to fight it or fret over it. My stress levels are practically non-existent and peace is accomplished with just a few short breaths now that I get it. Simplicity is key. Don't over think all situations. Things are how they are because they are how they are. I'm good with that.

In other news I've lost all interest in cooking EVER, lol! Hubby and I have had over embellished delicious salads for dinner tonight. My daughter's kept asking "what are you cooking?" To which I replied "nothing." My oldest decided to join and made a huge salad and my youngest went home and picked up a pizza. See? Simple. I'm sure I will pick up the cooking bug again soon. I'm in the process of trying new recipes and changing up our meal rotations. It was more difficult with the tastes of both daughters to factor into meals. Now it's just us two old farts who love to eat just about anything or at least try anything. Only difference is he loves seafood and I despise it. Maybe he will have to build up his cooking skills where seafood is concerned.

It's late and my alarm goes off in less than 5 hours. Nothing new about that, because that's usually when I'm finally getting to bed. 4 hours of sleep allows me to get out of bed rather easy as opposed to 5 or more hours which puts me in a bad joint situation.

Peace and light to you all

Video Meditation: Om Mani Padme Hum

Monday, June 25, 2012

Catch up. Midwifery, HMS and lymph nodes

It's Monday.

It's been a very long time since I blogged and right now I feel a draw to sorta journal/chronicle/diary my days.

I have often spoke of my love for birth, and the joy I experienced attending births in the past years including one home birth that really opened up my eyes and put a fire in my heart. Ever since I have chased the idea of becoming a midwife, a wild, home birth supporting midwife with a main focus on educating teen-aged moms.

So I found an online midwifery school, payed my 1st unit tuition, got my books and was even gifted a couple. I started the reading, note taking, adding on fb and twitter other midwifery/doula students and businesses. What excitement to talk about, learn about and even get invited to birth.


I've learned something. I do not enjoy reading/studying ANY of the technical books at all! In fact I find every possible excuse to not even go near them. I'm not joking. Which started an honest and open conversation with myself. Which I'm no stranger to conversations with myself I pretty much hold them daily. I'm 40 years old. Am a full in part time postal employee with health and retirement benefits. I love my job, I love the building I work at and the people I work with. I am very happy there. Do I really want to change careers in a couple of years trying to make it happen on my own? No health insurance, no retirement and starting so late in age? The answer is "not really".

Where does that leave things? Well it leaves me still awaiting the final decision. For the most part I know how I feel. I don't want to feel like a failure or that I abandoned this idea for the wrong reasons. I'm also playing around with the idea of going another way with it. Become a birth and postpartum doula, lactation educator and birth educator focused on young parents. Give back to my community to those whom I can identify with because I was once 16 and pregnant.

It feels good to be in a place in my life I can just stop, review my circumstances, be honest with ME and then follow through on to the next step in my path without guilt, shame or what if's! I swear that as I get older I think less and less about what others think and keep it moving and I love it! <3

There are other places in my life mainly spirituality/beliefs that I still struggle with being able to be open and honest in the world with. It sucks at times but I'm comfortable in my own skin and am thankful to have a loving network of like minded folks who are there for me. :-)

My hypermobility syndrome joint pain has been increasing and my joints behaving very badly often trying or actually popping out. I haven't had any big falls or breaks thank goodness and I try to be extra cautious about how I move and react when they do behave badly. I am totally looking forward to my appointment next month with my rheumatologist hoping for some x-rays and work up to see how my joints and arthritis is faring thus far.

Also on a medical note. One of my lymph nodes in my right armpit swelled painfully. Which became a cause for alarm with all of the breast cancer around me. I called my doctor and made an appointment. But a couple days before the swelling and pain disappeared. I called my doctor to see if I should still go in because I really didn't feel like paying my copay if I didn't really need to. She suggested that if I'm really stressed/worried I should go ahead and come in. I wasn't. If not just keep an eye on it if it comes back, get my keester back in asap. I agreed with her suggestions and just leaving it at that for now.

I hope all are well :-) light love and blessings to you all